most current 'dumb ass' realization

I have finally gained an attribute that many struggle to enable. I have no true desire for wealth, possesion, or prosperity. I have set a lifestyle in which my necessities are covered.

My first failing is allowing past due child support to still accrue to an outrageous level. This is what has controlled my actions since my seperation/divorce. Putting it off as it wasn't important just made it an impossible debt to overcome. I am taking steps now to get it under control, but it will take much of one of our most important traits, patience.

The second failing is with my physical well being. I have become grotesquelly fat. I like to blame my love of cooking for this, but it can't take all the blame. Me being a lazy ass letting depression lead the way was no excuse. I need to stop this lack of concern for myself. This not only causes dangers for my own well being, but that of my family's emotionsl states. I, in no way ever, want to impose any negative energy towards my family.